My first full on vision was 27 years ago, when the light broke through.

I had just gotten home. When I walked into the house, I found my husband sitting on the couch. 

“What was in the packet the department chair asked me to bring you?”

He looked up at me and said, “I got fired.”

Something inside me went into a free fall just then, and I reeled from the velocity of it. The previous weekend we had had one of those major discussions and had decided to plant our roots in Moscow, Idaho.We had been on the fence about either investing in a future there or looking elsewhere. We had gone down to swim in the Snake River, had an amazing and affirming day of playing in the water and light with our two small children, and had come to a knowing that we were all in on the Palouse. We were excited about it, feeling the new possibilities that open up when you commit to something, whether that’s a place, a person, or a path.

And just like that our plans turned to ashes.

I stood there stunned in my long black coat. I needed to pee, so I wobbled my way to the bathroom with my coat still on. Everything in me was in a swirl of NO. My heart was crying “No!”. My mind was yelling, “No!” and then, post-pee, as I moved toward the bathroom door to open it, I saw a huge radiance of light before me, and everything in it beamed a resounding “YES!” It was loud! And nearly blinding.

I was so confused by the vision in that moment. I felt stunned a second time, as that full-on “yes” had no resonance in me. Everything felt like it was disaster, disappointment, like being punched in the gut. And yet there was the shining “YES” in the middle of it.

That was the beginning of a huge life change, to be sure. We sold our house in a single day at asking price by hanging a “for sale” sign from a tree. As it swung gently in the breeze, a couple who had been looking to buy, who had looked at everything available in the small town of 16,000 or so (and nothing was what they wanted) happened by. 

The woman had convinced her husband to simply drive with her one more time through the neighborhoods they liked. “Why?” he had protested. We’ve already looked a dozen times. There is nothing there. “Just humor me,” she said. It turns out they had seen our house before, and had remarked to one another that if it ever came for sale, that’s where they’d want to live. Today was that day.

We sold the house without any idea of where we were headed, and with no income to move toward. Meanwhile, I decided maybe it was time for me to take a turn as the primary bread-winner, so began applying for jobs. I landed a full-time position as a Director of Music Ministries within a couple of months, a new career for me. We moved. We bought a house in Salem, OR. We divorced a little over a year later.

All of this unfolded before I was conscious. I lived a native mysticism, yes, but was just a puppy on the path. I had taken the first level of Reiki training, but that was about it in terms of energy or awakening. I was a total newbie.

And yet the light got through, shining a beacon of affirmation when I knew none. I’m so grateful for that moment that allowed me to trust when nothing in me felt like it could.

It was another 12 years or so before my awakening journey really took off, through the usual fare of miracles and misfortunes. Looking back, I can see how there has been a building of energetic capacity and conscious awareness all through those nearly 3 decades. What used to fry my circuits (frequency-wise) now barely registers. Inner visions, heavenly messengers, energy channeling and more are my daily bread. 

I find that it is a process to build our energetic stature. Sometimes we take quantum leaps forward, other times we go slow and steady. Some days you wonder if anything is really even happening, or means anything… particularly those days when you are blown away by realizing how little you really know (because the vastness of what we don’t “know” yet is always so much greater than the tiny cognitive deposits that create our inner landscape).

A channeling of a beautiful radiance of light came through from Metatron yesterday. While I am no stranger to his energy, it was the first time he wanted to talk to me through this pathway. 

I share as it is such a powerful emissary of light, and the vision he evoked at the center point is so connected to that first vision all of those years ago. It includes a beautiful practice for modulating your energy to higher frequencies.

Injoy! 

And In Love – 

Christine

photo: from light play with divine island sisters, saying yes to the full stature of light within

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Metatron is here. He says.

I am continuing the activation of the diamond white ray from yesterday. I am inside of your body, inside of these rays of light, modulating your inner light body to carry these vibrations.

Bring your attention to the very center of this emanation of radiance. This will assist your body’s assimilation of these frequencies.

At the center of the emanation is the greatest potency, and also the point of reference that is easiest to bear. If you were to follow the rays outward and put your attention there, it will be both too diffuse and too bright to bear. Stay with the center point.

(we do this together for a while)

Yes. Now you can sit at the outer reaches of the rays and look inward from every direction to the same center point. Try this now, please.

I do this for some moments until I feel I’ve got it fully in the flow, then say,

“May I ask you a question? How might I imagine you looking?”

You will see me as a silver and purple light. You will know me by these colors.

“Thank you. I can see them and some other streaks of rainbow iridescent within it. I like recognizing you by the color of your light. It is easy for me much easier than seeing a face or a form.” 

I continue: “I am sometimes concerned about the vibrations overwhelming my system or being too much for me.”

He responds:

I would ask you this: what is possibly more important than this communion? This activation and expansion?

“A good point. Thank you.”

Let’s now move the center point to inside your head right at the pineal. 

I notice the previous center point was between my solar plexus and sacral area. It now moves to the center of my head. 

“Wow, as we do that, I feel it in many many centers in my body simultaneously.”

Yes.

“On the bottoms of my feet, in my solar plexus and my heart, in my head, in my throat, at the tips of my fingers, the back of my spine, above my heart center, at the joints where my legs meet my hips…”

This is good, to recognize how much light you can generate and attune from your pineal.

We continue with the light meditation for some time, and eventually it subsides.

“Thank you, Metatron,”

You are welcome, with honor and blessing.